Monthly Archives: May 2013

I Love You Son. I Hope You Make Good Choices

Posted on May 30, 2013 by momofaninmateson

2-16-2010 Letter from Mom Continued Yes, I said I no longer believe only, but have a knowledge that the gospel is true. I have gained that knowledge by first exercising a desire to believe and then exercising faith in Jesus … Continue reading →

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An Outline of our Phone Call

Posted on May 28, 2013 by momofaninmateson

2-16-2010 Letter to Mom and Dad I just got off the phone with you and thought to write my thoughts right away. The actual purpose of my call being to tell you about the new visitation policy; everything else was … Continue reading →

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“Today I found it hard to keep reality straight…the real world is no longer real”

Posted on May 26, 2013 by momofaninmateson

2-15-2010 Journal Entry “I stayed up as late as I could this morning reading—finishing—Tom Clancy’s “Clear and Present Danger”. I very much enjoyed it and look forward to reading more of his books. I slept until 5pm which was my … Continue reading →

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“Son, I believe people can change”

Posted on May 24, 2013 by momofaninmateson

(This is a rather long letter that I wrote to my son. It is in response to the letter that he wrote me on 2-10-2010 and was posted in the blog on May 17, 2013 entitled “Mom, I would Love … Continue reading →

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“Today is Valentines Day…I miss my kids!”

Posted on May 22, 2013 by momofaninmateson

2-12-2010 Journal Entry “I slept all day yesterday. It would have been our 10th wedding anniversary. (second time married) I was very depressed. I had to use (a name brand sleep aid) to knock me out. Today was blah. I read … Continue reading →

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“…There is No Touching of Tender Heartstrings with Her…”

Posted on May 20, 2013 by momofaninmateson

2-10-2010 Letter from Mom “I want to make sure that when mail call comes, you have something to look forward to. I don’t know how much I will have to say but here goes. I called Sunday yesterday and we … Continue reading →

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“Mom, I would love to have scripture talks with you”

Posted on May 17, 2013 by momofaninmateson

2-10-2010 Letter to Mom “Dear Mom I got both of your letters and I would love to have scripture talks with you. Remember though, that I will be honest about my feelings and they might be a challenge for you. If … Continue reading →

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“Depression Kept Me In Bed All Day”

Posted on May 15, 2013 by momofaninmateson

2-6-2010 Journal Entry “Today was rough. I am very depressed. I’ve been reading the Bible—the Old Testament—and honestly, it’s making me more skeptical about God the more I read. My back is still very sore. I hope this pain goes … Continue reading →

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“Dear Grace”

Posted on May 13, 2013 by momofaninmateson

(I thought it was time to add another flash forward written by our son to his ex-wife. This one is dated 3-5-2013) Dear Grace, I often wonder; Do you gloat at how well you played me? In those final weeks, … Continue reading →

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“I’m Pleading for You Everyday in my Prayers”

Posted on May 13, 2013 by momofaninmateson

2-5-2010 Letter from Mom “Dear son, I thought maybe you would like to have letters more often—maybe one coming everyday or other day. I wondered how I would ever have enough to say. Then the thought came to me. You … Continue reading →

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