Monthly Archives: August 2013

“Everything I Did in Life from my Earliest Memory was to Fill a Need to Feel Loved or Accepted”

Posted on August 31, 2013 by momofaninmateson

(This letter is in response to the very long letter that I wrote on 3-23-10. Upon reading this letter I finally began to see my son as the “unique” individual that he is. He was right in saying that I … Continue reading →

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“Mom Sent Me a Strong Letter Which Left Me With Mixed Feelings”

Posted on August 28, 2013 by momofaninmateson

  3-27-2010 Journal Entry “Mom sent me a letter that arrived yesterday. It was a strong letter which left me with mixed feelings. She listed her opinions about my situation, as to if it is “right” or needful for me … Continue reading →

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“Like I’ve said, time moves slow here, so a couple of days is a very long time indeed”

Posted on August 22, 2013 by momofaninmateson

3-25-2010 Letter to Mom  (In response to the letter I wrote to him on 3/15/10) Dear Mom, “Sorry to take my time in responding further—yes, I know it’s only been a few days, but like I’ve said, time moves slow … Continue reading →

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“I Am Back Into the “Reading Like a Mad Man Mode”

Posted on August 21, 2013 by momofaninmateson

3-25-2010 Journal Entry “I’ve had no desire to write for the last several days, so I will attempt to catch up. I am back into the “reading like a mad man mode”. Having finished a biography of the pre-presidential life … Continue reading →

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I Love you Son, Never Doubt That

Posted on August 17, 2013 by momofaninmateson

(This is part two of my very long 9 page letter. This part of the letter contains a lot of impressions and inspiration from above, to my son. I was amazed, many times, how the thoughts and ideas flowed into … Continue reading →

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“Search For the Truths I Believe God Wants You to Learn Son”

Posted on August 15, 2013 by momofaninmateson

(This was a rather long letter so I decided to divide it into two parts. The first part relates some information that my husband and I found in a book that we were very impressed that our son needed to … Continue reading →

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“Please God…allow me to go home! I want to go home!”

Posted on August 14, 2013 by momofaninmateson

3-20-2010 Journal Entry “My heart is still hurting. I can’t seem to shake the pain I feel of lonely longing. For my children my heart aches. I feel their loss to be sure, but oh, how complete was God’s skill … Continue reading →

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We All Love You

Posted on August 12, 2013 by momofaninmateson

(This is dad’s reply to our son’s 3-15-2010 letter to Mom and Dad, posted August 1st) 3-19-2010 Letter from Dad Dear Son:   Got your latest letter today and wanted right from the start to tell you: I love you. Your … Continue reading →

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Flash Forward: A Letter to Grace

Posted on August 12, 2013 by momofaninmateson

4-09-2013 A “Dear Grace” Letter “Dear Grace: I mailed a letter to my sentencing judge yesterday. In it, I asked if there was some way to legally communicate with my kids. I wish you could see who I am becoming. … Continue reading →

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“Oh God in Heaven” A Fervent Prayer From a Man in Despair

Posted on August 7, 2013 by momofaninmateson

3-19-2010 Journal Entry “I am hurting, really bad. I didn’t pull myself out of bed until after 10pm this evening. I am not in physical pain; but a depression such that I have not felt—though I suppose that’s not true; … Continue reading →

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